*Sigh*

I didn't believe that mental things could effect physically on people earlier, I though of it as just some "New age mumbo-jumbo". Damn how wrong I was.

Well, I'll explain at first: I am VERY ressitant towards bacteria and viral diseases. I can eat pretty contaminated food without any effect on me, while other people are racing about which can puke the most in a minute.(And when the swine flu was a big thing, my whole family was infected, but not I. Hell, my system negated the effect of the shot given to counter it) And, when I am sick then, I'm not sick for long, like, six hours, tops.

Well, last night I lost technically everything I ever had, so needless to say that I am quite shocked(Oh, and don't come telling me that I have changed, it won't help). Then, as I woke up in the morning, I had fever, sore throat, headache and clogged nose. I took meds for them, no effect. I slept for six hours after school, no effect, still sick. Seems like my whole resistance system against bacteria and viruses went out of commision.

Oh, and other thing. Penkkarit. Or specifically people celebrating graduating.
WHY IT IS SO HARD TO FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT SOME PEOPLE DO NOT WANT THAT YOU'LL MESS THEIR FACES WITH LIPSTICK AND GLITTER.
Yeah, and the general "We are so much better than you, worship and we'll give you candy after we have made you look like a complete clowns" thing. Doesn't cut my cake(did I just invent something new?)

So, in general, I have lost my extraordinary skill of not getting sick, I have been insulted and fucked with the whole day, and to top it, my ENTIRE life-planning was just swept off it's basin.

As I no longer have any psychic or physic stoppers of making everyone else's life as miserable as possible, you'd better be fucking prepared. Because I have been set free.

If I can't give, I'll take.
Accept the truth, be fueled by my hate.
At least I know it's always there for me.