Yes, I might be losing my mind, who knows?

Sometimes I really wish I was born a girl. No, not because males are idiots, although that too, but because most (86,4%) of my friends are female. I can't be an equal part of the grup with them, I can't speak with them like they speak with eachother, not because I wouldn't understand them, far from it, it's because I am male. I can't hang out together with them like girls hang out together, because people instantly think that we would be dating or that I am dating someone of the group. This really pisses me off, and sometimes I truly do think of walking out of that group just because I know that if I did, both parties would fare better, and the discrimination and gossiping would end.

I hate you, modern world. I hate gender discrimination, I hate th norms between genders and I hate norms in male-female friendships. I hate people who make conclusions without any ase to their thoughts and I HATE THE FACT THAT I CAN NEVER BE CONSIDERED AN EQUAL PART OF THE GROUP.

What?
No, shut up.
SHUT UP!
I know! Just..
I KNOW! SILENCE! LET ME BE!
No! It's not like that it's...
NO!
I Know I do!
I FUCKING KNOW
I know I can't too, I do, no need to repeat it-Shut up!
COULD YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE NOW?!
OUT!
I know.
I know!
I KNOW!

WOULD YOU KINDLY LEAVE MY HEAD, LOVE I KNOW I CAN'T GET HER BACK.

Fuck.

Love feels bad. It hurts.

If I can't give, I'll take.
Accept it, it's the truth.
Be fueled by my hate.

At least I know that it's always there for me.