I find it very meditational to repair, disassemble and reassemble broken things. I don't know why, but I just find it extremely calming to have pieces fit tigether like clockwork.

Disassemble, clean, repair, reassemble. Disassemble, clean, reassemble. Disassemble, reassemble...

Especially firearms. And other similar mechanical things with alot of moving parts. It's just.... Soothing.

Oh well, look at that.

There is a sun outside.

I shall not fall again

No. I won't. No matter how hard you try, no matter how much I'd like to. No. You'll just reject me. Just turn away. Is that what you want or what I want? I SHALL NOT FIND OUT.

Even if you'd come to find me from the depths of the dreamlands, I won't. I think of you, yes. Every day. Every single day I think what would have happened if I didn't give it back to you. EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY. Hopeless. Lonely. Distant. Even from myself.
That choice destroyed my life and all I valued. Even you, partially.

That part of me is dead. Gone. Why can't I even accept that myself?

Reviev of the movie I am number four

Well, I went to the movies tonight and watched the movie I am number four. And man it was made of stupid.

Okay, I am totally going to spoil the movie here, so if you are pallning to watch it, read no further. On second thought, read further, you may save some money.

In the beginning, nothin is explained. Stuff just happens for no reason. Who are the guys who look like Voldemorts? What's the deal with the necklace? Why is the boy hunted? Why is there that blue glowing glob on the pommel of the knife? And know what, none of this is ever really explained. Except the Voldemorts, which seemingfully are Monrovians or something (this is the point where I bursted in laughter in the theater)
Ok, so the aliens are Mogarodians(Chuckle) Who, as said are bald aliens who hae sharpened teeth, wear kickass trenchcoats and have gills ON THEIR FACES. Wtf? How high does one need to be to invent something like this?

 Enough sporfling about the Monrovians, we zoom into the life of one John Smith(seriously? That's his name? John Smith? Like if writers just didn't invent a good name for their main character and called him John Smith. And it's even joked about in the movie! ) Well, John Smith is one of the survivors of an alien race that lived on the planet Lorien(Where are these guys from? Middle Earth?) but he is one of the nine "special descendants" who possess weird skills kalled "The Legacy" that makes their palms glow. Yyeah.
 So these nine are numbered from one to nine, and the Mongalords want to kill them(never explained why) in numerological order from one to nine(Again never explained why). Well, our main character John Smith is the number four(Like you couldn't guess that by now). Apparently the designer of these nine is a masochist, because when one of the nine dies, the other nine get a nice crop rings burned to their legs with a nice light effect (WHY?!??).  Legacy grants the user weird powers, as for John Smith gains force push (really, now that's original)

 If it is not clear by now, these aliens are badly developed. Why are they on Earth? What the hell is the purpose of these nine? How did they come to exist? TOO MANY QUESTIONS UNANSWERED!

Okay, John Smith and his childkeeper Henri move to a new town because the light effect was seen and taped by someone and was posted to youtube or something. They move to a new town, they fight a little, Smithy goes to school and just falls in love wth this girl who, for some reason, invites him to her home for dinner. After the dinner they move to the girl's room and JOHN JUST STARTS TO READ HER DIARY. Although she says that it's kinda private, she does nothing to stop him. and then he's openly an ass to the girl and then they fall in love. Well sorry to ruin your moment guys, but LOVE DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY.
After that Johnny screws around again which results in photos in the internet of him doing the alien thing which results Henri's wish that they move away from the town. Results in a fight where Henri says at first that it's just a  highschool crush and that he should forget it and after two minutes jsut says to him that their race falls in love only once (Well that made sense). And then they stay and stuff happens.

 The town also happens to be the residence of the son of a guy named Malcolm who tried to unite the nine, because they were more powerful together(What was the point to separate them in the first place?)
Yeah, clichés. This movie has them alot.

 And then there's the dog. Dog that was a lizard originally, but then turned to a dog and then suddenly was a fucking chimaira after being a dog for the whole movie. Convenient. Very. And then there are the Mogadishu people's hairless giant flying squirrels(oh yes, really.) This movie is very stupid.

I am not going to speak of the trial of romance in this movie, because it's identical to any other teenage love drama. But it's more stupid because it makes no sense.

And ou know the worst part of it? THEY ENDED IT OPENLY. I swear to god that if this shit is going to get a sequel, I'll watch Twilight again.

Bottomline: This movie was extremely stupid, do not go and watch it. Please. Don't go.

One day left

Saturday went by pretty fast. I woke up at 2100 and went to buy dew.
After I got home, I did the portfolio assignments and wrote the short stories for finnish class, and studied a bit maths and logics(got no homework from them because my teacher is a cool guy)

After those, I idled. For a long time.

Friday rolls over

AND MAN IT WAS NO DIFFERENT.
Again, I spent the whole day at the computer (Do I do this too much?), doing the exact same things over and over. So, I watched Nostalgia Criticfor about 25 vids more.
 Joonas also dropped by and borrowed the PSP again, only that he forgot to put the Peace Walker back on to the memory card(He'll bring it tomorrow, and I'll have Portable ops+ too. MGS fanboyness, yay!

 Other than that, tomorrow I might want to look into homework abit, so that I wouldn't forget that I go to highschool. I have about three portfolio assignments to do, homework from at least three courses and at least two short stories to write. Why did I pack all of this to the last weekend? (Again)

Oh well, I guess I am off to bed soon.

...And yet another uneventful day.

Today I, again, spent at the computer. I watched Nostalgia Critic's videos, about 40 first of them. Along it I also did a few another things, drew a little, and was generally bored.

Now I am tired as hell, and I am heading to the pit of unsettling.

Have a good one.

Once again a morning update...

Bed trapped me again, as I got up at 2100 today =/
Well, the day(or night actually) went past, surprise surprise, at the computer. I finished watching Spoony's videos(I mean all of them) and swamped through several sites, discussed of actions after a zombie apocalypse, drew, got bored and drew some more. All in all, a boring and uneventful day.

The day of being awake.

I have been awake ever since the last blog update, that was 15 hours ago(And up to that point I had been already awake for over 24 hours) And, not much has changed since. I dwelled more into Elysians of Imperial Guard during the day and generally swamped through the internets.

Around 1800 I left to town to team up with Juha and Linda to go to Juha's place and watch How to train your Dragon and Life of Brian. Both were, a expectable, very good films. The only thing about HTTYD was that the main character looked exactly like one friend of mine, which, of course, breeded many hilarious situations.

About half an hour ago I left from Juha's place and came home, and almost instantly wrote this.

Pretty basic day, really.

A little late, yes.

Today(Yesterday) wasn't much. I spent the whole day rolling in my Pit of Unsettling (That would be my bed, and yes, I do call it by that ridiculous name), which upsetted my mom quite a bit. Finally, rising up and getting dressed at roughly 1800, I did the dishes and went to the computer, and have been here ever since.
What, you never spent over twelve hours at the computer?

Anyways, technically the only thing worth mentionable that I did today was that I watched the whole Spoony's Let's play of Phantasmagoria 2, and beginned With the Let's play of Ripper. (And some dwelling into the weaponry of the Warhammer 40.000 universe)

That, as short as it is, sums my day quite literally.

More will follow tomorrow.

On another separate note....

I'll try to record my skiing holiday here daily.

Feelings right now? I need to settle things with Van.

On a separate note.....

It was fun at Juha's place to play Tekken and Halo for a bit. And I have forgotten how beautiful silence sounds like. It was also beautiful to walk home along a partially lit road under a starry sky. I think it's the first time this year I have had time or a chance to look at the stars. *Sigh*, thoughts, memories.
Painful.

Now I officially need to die.

*sigh*

I watched Twilight.
Voluntarily.
AND MAN IT SUCKED. Just about the worst movie I have ever seen. On par with all of Uwe Boll's productions I have seen(And I have seen Alone in the Dark, mind you) 
I lost count around seven when I counted the reasons why Bella should go see someone of medical profession. The girl clearly has problems. And his father does what? Abso-fucking-lutely nothing! Gives her a pepper spray and later quite clearly tells her to go out to town in the night.

 The whole "Twilight saga" (Twilight was just the name of the first book, not of the series you idiots, you even fucked that up) completely wrecked the traditional vampire thing. Also, it was completely full of mistakes (And I mean it was full of them, not just continuity mistakes, but mistakes with their own vampire thing ,especially the sparkly thing). From those I was capable to keep a count, and am going to list them here to annoy you. From here follows spoilers(Like anyone cares) and utter stupidity. You have been warned. Run while you can.

-In the scene where Bella and Edward arrive to school together, as they are walking through the crowd you can see the sunshine on Edwards left cheek but no glittery effect is being shown at all.

-In the scene where Bella is talking to Edward just after she comes out of the doctor's office (when Edward, Carlisle and Rosalie are talking), you can very faintly see the rims of her contact lenses

-When Bella and Edward talk in the woods, Bella drops her backpack in front of a tree. In a subsequent shot, the backpack has disappeared.

- In the baseball scene, Rosalie slides into home and her pants are dirty. The next time she's up to bat, her pants are clean.

-When Bella is researching on the computer, she finds a page that spells the word "Apotamkin" (correctly), but when she opens the page, it now spells the word as Apotampkin.

-When Bella is at the salad bar in the lunchroom, she knocks over the apple and Edward catches it. In the next shot, neither Edward nor Bella have it.

-When Edward jumps out of the window, he drags a tree with him, but he isn't very close to it. Also when Edward jumps, he stays level to the ground. Just because he is a vampire it never means that he can disobey the laws of gravity.(At least was never explained)

-When Edward stops the truck from crushing Bella, it is clear that the side of the truck is crushed before it actually reaches them.

- In the hospital scene when Edward tells Bella she should go to Jacksonville you hear the heart monitor in the background and although Bella is visibly upset the heartbeat continues at the same rate.

- In the first biology lesson, Bella walks past the fan, and Edward's papers fly up. If the fan was in his direction anyway, his papers would have been flying up before Bella arrived.(Also while in front of the fan, her hair was messed up. Although as she sat, her hair was completely fine)

- there is a point where James rams Edward's head into the mirrors, shattering the surface. However, Edward's reflection on the shattered surface remains intact, instead of being a fractured reflection, as would have been the case when a mirror shatters.

-In the scene Edward comes into Bella's room and kisses her, Bella is at first wearing sweatpants. Then she is wearing shorts instead when they kiss.

-In the ballet studio fight scene, Bella grasps an injured right leg with her left hand. When Bella is in the hospital, the cast is obviously on the left leg which is under the blanket-the silhouette of the leg is straight and much larger than the right leg, which is thinner, flexed and has skin exposed at an area which would have been covered had it been in a bandage or cast. But when she and Edward go to prom, the injured leg is again the right leg, which is in a cast.


These are just the few I was capable to pick up. The glitter thing annoyed me the most, Because it was their own invention, and even then they didn't get it right. And, exactly what did Bella see in Edward? All the time he was just an annoying prick to her! Mentally healthy people do not work that way!  AAAAARG! DIE STEPHANIE MEYERS, DIE!